The moment that I pick it up, I will be thrown into mayhem. I couldn't move. My body would NOT walk back to that phone. My knees were wobbly and the bottom to my stomach dropped. Benny was playing in the floor in the living room. I looked at him and suddenly, my mind went haywire. I have 4 children and I am already at my wits end most of the time. What if that call is about another baby? We are DONE. We have no money, no room in this house and I have no brain cells left. I looked at the phone again.
I can't do it.....But, how can I not?